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30 August 2005 @ 02:59 am
Yeah, okay, so THAT was weird...  

All of you who suffered through my last update, fear not. I am much better now. And I didn't even have a good snotty cry or anything.

It's not really like me to go all dark and morose like that and as I was laying in bed, trying to sleep, a little part of my mind kept whispering "Hey, all this is fixable, you know. Break it down and take care of it one thing at a time. Relax."

And another part of my brain poked me in the metaphorical ribs and said "Yo, whiny! Remember what the docs said about coming off the prednisone? You'd be MOODY and DEPRESSED and IRRITABLE and CRY FOR NO REASON at the DROP OF A HAT? Any of this ringing a bell?"

See, for those of you who are just joining the program, I was on the maximum dosage of prednisone (a corticosteroid) for more than a year and was put on megadoses in the hospital the four times I was there over the last year. And while the drug obviously saved my life until the docs could get rid of my large intestine, it also poisoned me, as it is wont to do.

I've been completely off of it for just about two months now, and this is when the body begins to purge it from its system. So, in addition to losing my hair (they promise it will grow back and I haven't lost all that much yet, but still, nice side effect), having really bad dry skin problems, and having my finger and toe nails grow nearly out of control, I also get to have mood swings, irritability, depression, and anger episodes.

There are a host of other side effects that I will be suffering over the YEAR it takes to get this stuff out of one's system, but these are the ones that I've started with.

So...I really think that's what happened tonight.

Thank you for letting me vent and for being patient with me while I completely lost my mind.

This is probably going to happen again sometime, so consider yourselves warned.

And really, you are all the best flist a girl could have.

CaseyLove to all of you!

Going to bed again, this time to actually sleep, I hope.

Erin :)
My State of Mind: hopefulhopeful
What the Voices in My Head Hear: my cat snoring
Kathryn Erbe's biggest fan: SVU Casey/Elliot That Sucks!audragoren on August 30th, 2005 12:30 pm (UTC)
That Sucks (which Casey is saying in the icon) *hugs*
seftiri: Limerseftiri on August 30th, 2005 02:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I agree. But...it could be worse, right? ;)

Love the icon (even if it is Elliot). LOL
Shit: caseywhatshitashii on August 30th, 2005 02:45 pm (UTC)
Hey everyone's allowed to vent when they feel like it. Especially to friends who love them. Which we do. Well I do. Anyway, mood swings suck a lot. I'm sorry you have to deal with them. Especially at extremes.

::love and hugs::
seftiriseftiri on August 30th, 2005 10:16 pm (UTC)
Love your icon, sweetie. And thanks for the support. I went to work today and managed fairly well, so I am in a much MUCH better mood than I was last night.

I'm hoping I don't have to have another one anytime soon, cuz they suck.

::love and hugs back to you:: :)