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19 February 2006 @ 05:02 pm
Guns & Microscopes Ficathon!!!  
A Trick of the Eye
by DiNovia

Fandom:  CSI: Vegas
Pairing:  Sara/Sofia (Sassy)
Rating:  G
Spoilers:  Werewolves (though only marginally)
Notes:  Pre-relationship contemplation
Thank You:  To piekid, for beta services

Written for the Guns & Microscopes Ficathon at femslash_today.

My assignment: 

request one: CSI
pairing: Sara/Sofia
NC17: either with or without
squicks: bdsm, non-con, pwp, song-fics
prompt: the phone booth scene from the sixth season episode 'Werewolf'


It's hard to be in the same room with you, Sara Sidle, thought Sofia Curtis, glancing at the dark head bent over some journal or another at the far end of the spartan room where Grissom's CSIs all consumed the caffeinated sludge that fueled their long nights.  Sofia had heard rumors of a secret stash of Fair-Trade Organic but she didn't put too much stock in them.  The rumors pegged Greg Sanders as the stash's owner and that was something too hard even for the pragmatic detective-cum-CSI to believe.  She certainly hadn't ever been offered this holy elixir, so until she could prove its existence through time-tested evidentiary investigation techniques, she chose to treat the rumor the same way she'd been raised to view God: with a frankly skeptical eye topped off with a healthy dose of pure agnosticism.

Sara Sidle, on the other hand, demanded a non-linear approach and nothing was ever as it seemed with her.  Sofia felt that if she were to peel the first and most obvious layer of Sara away; if she could somehow crack that steel shell of studied detachment, she would find something underneath that resembled bulletproof armor but in reality was only trompe l'oiel.  Something painted over something else.  Something intricate and intense, meant to distract and redirect rather than to protect and restrict.

In fact, Sofia suspected that underneath that impressive psychological paint was even more paint.  Followed by wallpapers in confusing and grotesque patterns, experiments with tinted plaster, and maybe even old wood paneling, embarrassing in its obsolescence.  A history of error detailing the young woman's attempts to spackle over some crack in the core of the structure, long ago buried but never completely out of mind.  Sara was no builder; not into repair.  Sofia speculated that the defect she worked so hard to obliterate was neither as ugly or as damaging as she probably believed it to be.  That would be typical in cases like hers.

You left me waiting for hours by that phone booth, thought Sofia and she was surprised by the flash of pain that accompanied it.  She was not the type to harbor hurt feelings or to make sport of grudges.  She'd worked for Ecklie long enough to see what chaos could be wrought by the simple act of bitching out of turn and she avoided such displays like the plague.  Not that disassociating one's self from office politics didn't also have its sticky parts, but she preferred those by far to knives in her back.  She--like so many others--had learned that the hard way.

But here she stood, hurt by Sara's disregard.  Remembering the start of her second hour of exile in the wasteland back alleys of Vegas and the sharp breeze that brought the stench of garbage and urine to her nostrils, Sofia had no difficulty understanding why she had thought that fingerprinting the booth would be a good idea.  What she didn't understand was why she had enjoyed the CSI's barely concealed exasperation so damned much when she'd given her the preliminary report on her findings.

It was as much that confusion as anything else that had brought her down the corridor to this particular door.  Where she stood silently, studying Sara Sidle as if she were one of Grissom's bugs under glass.

Maybe she is.  The thought was both unwelcome and unsurprising.  Grissom's way of categorizing the world into neat little boxes extended even to those who'd worked with him for years.  Sofia had ignored that at first; focusing instead on his superior investigative techniques and his relentless belief in the evidence.  Ecklie, after all, was at his heart a bureaucrat.  Grissom was a scientist.  Brilliant, yes, but one whose scientific curiosity knew no bounds.  One who catalogued even those who would call him friend.

They all had them: metaphorical straight pins driven through their chests, holding them to the whiteboard of his conclusions about them no matter how hard they squirmed.  Sofia imagined that the tag on Sara's pin read chrysalis.  And Sara never squirmed.

She'd heard those rumors, too.  Sara in love with Grissom.  Grissom by turns either clueless or cruelly dismissive, depending on who was relating the story.

Sofia knew Sara wasn't really in love with Grissom.  Those elements, if ever combined, would be as non-reactive as distilled water.  What Sara liked was the sensation of being known better than she knew herself.  What drew her was the misinterpretation of the meaning behind the effort of such an undertaking. 

Layers.  Angles.  Shields.  Armor.

A person could be driven mad trying to unearth Sara Sidle if they went about it like an archaeologist.

But I'm not a camelhair dust brush and a pair of tweezers, thought Sofia.  I'm a crowbar.  And Sofia understood, finally, the appeal of Sara Sidle; the why behind her uncharacteristic zing of schadenfreude earlier outside the phone booth.


The force of the realization hit Sofia--hard--in her gut and she was still recovering when Sara stood, tossed her forensics journal onto the rest of the stack by the coffee machine, and headed toward the door.  The slightly taller, more intensely packaged woman stopped directly in front of Sofia and her mouth twisted into a wry smirk.  She did not look surprised by Sofia's presence.

"Something you need or you planning to stand here for the rest of the morning?"  The cold glint of challenge was unmistakable in Sara's hardening eyes.

Sofia's dispassion evaporated.  A conflagration of volatility rushed to fill the emptiness left behind.

"Don't you ever leave me waiting like that again."  Her low growl surprised even herself.  "I will not be ignored by you."

Sara's smirk faltered as surprise invaded her earthen-colored eyes.  The surprise was followed by a flare of interest and sparks of appreciation and admiration that were quickly snuffed out by Sara's patented blank gaze and the slight crease of a frown between her delicate brows.  She said nothing and instead pushed past Sofia in the doorway, jostling her carelessly and without apology.

Sofia watched appreciatively as Sara Sidle walked away.  Then she wondered.

Wondered if the nascent heat she'd seen in the brunette's eyes was something true or if it had only been a trick of the eye.




My State of Mind: accomplishedaccomplished
celievampcelievamp on February 19th, 2006 10:22 pm (UTC)
wow... really good (looks at own attempt at writing Sara/Sofia in distaste)
seftiri: All Smilesseftiri on February 19th, 2006 11:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks. :) I really don't feel comfortable with this pairing so I am glad that you liked it.
fewthistlefewthistle on February 19th, 2006 10:29 pm (UTC)
Oh, Serf-titi!!! How wondrous! How gorgeous! How lovely to see you writing, anything!! But this, this was truly amazing. Such incredible insight into both characters, and the analogy of all people as merely bugs to Grissom was profoundly brilliant!!!

Damn, woman, why don't you write more? Why do you leave us longing for fics, only to have them over far too soon, and now we must thirst for more with little hope of water??

I loved this, in case you couldn't tell *vbg*
seftiri: DN2seftiri on February 19th, 2006 11:28 pm (UTC)
Damn, woman, why don't you write more? Why do you leave us longing for fics, only to have them over far too soon, and now we must thirst for more with little hope of water??

Ah, the $64,000 question... I could give you the long, angsty answer but I think I'll stick with the short, hopeful one. The Awakening should be out within the week. That, if you'll recall, is the sequel to The Good Earth, which was based on your Look Homeward Angel.

I'm glad you liked this. :)
ralst: Sassyralst on February 19th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
Wheee! You got me!

You are a natural at writing this pairing and the intricacies of their characters and lives. Such beautiful and accurate imagry; Sara's multiple layers, as an attempt to paste over her flaws, was masterful.

Beautifully written.

I hope you write more for these two.
seftiri: seven of nineseftiri on February 19th, 2006 11:33 pm (UTC)
Rachel, let me tell you, I was both ecstatic and completely terrified when I got you as my assignment. I truly have not seen enough of Sofia (and practically nothing of her interactions with Sara) to feel comfortable with the pairing yet. I totally intended to answer your Jordan/Serena request. But then this came to me and apparently it was believable.

I'm so relieved!

I'm glad you enjoyed this. We'll see if I do manage to write more for them. But first, I really have to see the two women together onscreen! LOL
ralst: Sofia Blueralst on February 20th, 2006 12:06 am (UTC)
If only there wasn't an ocean between us I'd happily bring all Sofia's episodes to you personally - damn geography!

I'm sure the Jordan/Serena story would have been great, but I'm ever so glad you decided to go with this one.
seftiri: T7 NewlyJoinedseftiri on February 20th, 2006 02:05 am (UTC)
I really am glad you liked it.

And don't worry, I'm catching up on the CSIs I've missed. Promise.

put that on your balls!: we were perfect misfitsthenewhope on February 19th, 2006 11:50 pm (UTC)
oah, yes. the imagery here is just wonderful. powerful and spot on!

and that ending, with Sofia asserting herself and the spark of pleasure and recognition in Sara - so utterly perfect for these two. I am totally blown away that you've accomplished all this without really seeing the canon (not that there's a whole heck of a lot of canon between these two, but).

I am ever so glad you participated in the ficathon!
seftiri: DN Joyseftiri on February 20th, 2006 02:07 am (UTC)
I'm glad you enjoyed this.

And thanks for organizing the ficathon. I had a great time with it even if I thought I'd never make the deadline. ;)

Katie: Thumbs Uporacledelphi617 on February 20th, 2006 04:04 am (UTC)
Oh yummy yummy tension. I like the almost scientific approach you took to this. Sassy is the new love!
seftiri: Like Thisseftiri on February 21st, 2006 02:14 am (UTC)
Sassy is who's new love? Not mine! I'm still all about the C/O, baby! ;)


Glad you liked this!
Katie: Beaveroracledelphi617 on February 21st, 2006 02:19 am (UTC)
Yea, maybe this makes me a traitor, but I'm really getting sucked into the whole Sassy concept.

Maybe if the SVU writers weren't letting their pet chimps take over it'd be more of a challenge to distract me from the C/O goodness...
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seftiri: All Smilesseftiri on February 20th, 2006 03:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you, dear! Glad you liked it! :D
Ariestess: ShatterStorm Productions -- from sparkleariestess on February 21st, 2006 12:41 am (UTC)
That was fascinating! I like the dominant edge to Sofia...

Any chance we could get your permission to host a copy/link over at Frisked & Conquered?
seftiri: All Smilesseftiri on February 21st, 2006 02:27 am (UTC)
Absolutely. :)

I'd prefer a link rather than full copy, though, if that's okay.


And I'm glad you enjoyed it.

Ariestessariestess on February 21st, 2006 04:48 pm (UTC)
I can do a link, that's actually easier for me in the long run. *g*

Do you want the link here to your lj entry? Or somewhere else?

And how have you been? Haven't talked to you in a while, and have grown far too silent over on HC...
seftiriseftiri on February 22nd, 2006 12:46 am (UTC)
To my LJ entry would be wonderful, thanks!

Oh, honey, I haven't been on HC for years.

I've been doing much better lately than over the last year (2 major surgeries and a break up). My health is back on track and I have a new Valentine ;). I also have a two-and-a-half year old niece and a 4-month-old nephew who make my life an amazing and wonderful world.

How are you doing? :)

Ariestessariestess on February 23rd, 2006 05:52 pm (UTC)
I'll do the link then. No worries.

And yeah, I'm not exactly sure why I'm still on HC. For the most part, I haven't done anything with any of the Voyager women in ages, outside of recast them in other things [sort of AU/uber thing]...

And life's been interesting, that's for sure...For the most part, it's all in my lj...But work, children's charity, and my pets are the bulk of my life, plus writing of course...
mrswoman: CathSofiamrswoman on February 21st, 2006 10:59 pm (UTC)
I wish I had time to write more than this but alas and alack, or something like that.

Needless to say I found your take on the Sara/Sofia relationship wonderful and that sentence from Sofia...

"Don't you ever leave me waiting like that again." Her low growl surprised even herself. "I will not be ignored by you."

... brilliant :)
seftiri: C/O Yay Heroesseftiri on February 22nd, 2006 12:49 am (UTC)
Thank you!

I'm so glad that people are enjoying this so much. I swear I had a panic attack about this story. I just haven't seen enough of Sofia, let alone enough of her with Sara, to feel comfortable yet. Apparently I hit something true, though, and I am glad.

Glad you liked it! :D