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25 June 2005 @ 04:15 pm
Sigh...help me to remember why I went through all this?  
So...I sleep more than my frickin' cat. Yes. Though mono was worse (I had strep with it and in addition to not being able to lift my head, I really wanted to be able to swallow without crying), I feel kinda like I did then.

See, for about four hours every day my body says "Um, why are we still lying around on soft cushiony pillowy chairs and not doing things? We should be out! We should work! We should write! We should go shopping! We should do anything ANYTHING but look for another episode of Law & Order:SVU or Trauma: Life in the ER on this lousy TV!" And stupidly, my mind agrees. "Ahem, yes, we here in the mind, we would like to show our agreement with body and we say yes, go do something. We have seen this episode before and it has very little Olivia in it and the nanny didn't do it. Plus, no Casey. So off the chair, you oaf!"

So, mind and body in agreement, I get off the chair and do something productive. Like shower. Or go downstairs to make myself a small meal. Or spend a few hours forwarding and sorting email messages. Then afterwards there is a sudden screech!

It is body. "WHAT were you THINKING, you stupid bitch! A shower? A SHOWER?? Do we look like Lance Armstrong? Do we look like that Ethiopian who keeps winning the Boston Marathon? I mean, really! We're recovering from major surgery here! We need to rest, to heal, to think gentle, medically sound thoughts. We do NOT need to overdo things. Thank you very much. Now, go. Slog up those stairs, please, and get into bed. It is time for our nap."

And mind clears its throat. "Ahem, yes, we here in mind would like to add our agreement again with body but we're afraid we won't be much use to you at the moment as we are feeling dizzy and fairly incoherent. A nap would be useful, yes."

The end result is that I sleep almost as long as--if not longer than--my cat. In slices of time, of course, and not all at once. I can only sleep for about four hours at a time before I have to visit the little convaleser's room. Then I am up for anywhere between two to six hours, depending on my pain levels, my energy levels and what I may or may not be doing with my time. Then, nap time again. And so it goes.

I went out to the pool with my niece, my sister-in-law, and my mother the other day. The three of them got in the pool and swam for about 45 minutes. I sat in a comfortable chair, in the shade, and watched them. That's all I did. I did not run laps around the parkinglot or organize water games for forty. I sat in the shade and watched them. After we got home, I slept for about 36 hours with breaks only to take meds and visit the restroom.

Ack! Even now! Just now I yawned quite deeply and I heard mind whisper "Nap time!" Body isn't quite on the same page at the moment because body is having troubles of a different sort right now (namely pain). Ack! Another yawn! And I rubbed my eyes!

Oy. One day, gentle readers, I hope to be able to stay up for twelve hours in a row. Today, however, is not that day.


My State of Mind: sleepysleepy
shayshaych_03 on June 25th, 2005 09:08 pm (UTC)
LOL! no, i'm not laughing at you, really. i'm laughing at the irony of this ...

you see, i've had about 2-2.5 hours of sleep... dogs woke me up with their incessant howling... i let them in and now... i cannot go back to sleep because... insomnia sucks. LOL

just remember, you are getting better. :) and you have a computer now.
seftiri: limeseftiri on June 26th, 2005 03:10 am (UTC)
maybe i am getting your sleep for you? i seem to go through extremes. i bet, in about three weeks, i will be as insomniac as you are now

what a tiring thought...