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25 January 2007 @ 08:53 pm
Because nothing's ever easy...  
So today I had to have an emergency injection of medication into my left eyeball.

I went through TWO major surgeries where my prognosis was rather bleak and the anxiety I felt for each of those COMBINED did not match ONE-TENTH of the anxiety that I dealt with today. OMG.

There is something very unsettling about even the idea of that kind of medical treatment. UGH.

I tried to go to work right afterward and my boss, Ellen, said I was very brave and she was very impressed with my dedication and that I should immediately go home. She even offered to drive me. LOL

I did end up going home because the "minor irritation" the doctor counseled me to expect is uncontrollable blinking, constant eye watering, and a feeling like my eyeball has been rolled in sand. Not really conducive to work.

I was so anxious through out the prep for the procedure, that the only way I could calm myself was thinking about my beautiful gf and how strong she would be in the same situation. I'm not sure I handled it as well as I think she would have, but I managed to only whimper and not completely lose my mind. The nurse was very nice and offered to hold my hand. She even told me she was very strong and I could squeeze as hard as I wanted to. I didn't hear her scream, so I don't think I actually squeezed it too hard.

So here is the thing about the actual medication they used in the injection; it's a colon cancer drug. I want to know how on EARTH doctors discovered a colon cancer drug, when injected into the eyeball, helps with retinal fluid leakage! Did they go through all the other drugs one at a time?

Research Doctor 1: Okay, the injection of Prozac didn't work. What next?

Research Doctor 2: Well, we have this colon cancer drug or this nail fungus powder. Which do you want?

Research Doctor 1: Eh, I'm feeling lazy today. I don't feel like mixing the powder with saline to make it injectable. Give me the colon cancer drug.

Surely that's not how medical research is done, right? Actually, don't tell me. I don't want to know.

Anyway, I just thought I'd share this new and unnerving experience with you all.

Because I'm a sharing kind of gal? You be the judge.

I hope Jeri is on Shark tonight. I should get an eye-candy treat after today. ;)

Love to you all!


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eclecticfan: olivia oyeclecticfan on January 26th, 2007 03:17 am (UTC)
damn, girl...

I don't even know where to start other than to say, know you're in my thoughts and I send bestest wishes for a quick recovery.

seftiri: Smileseftiri on January 26th, 2007 03:27 am (UTC)
Oh thank you, sweetie. I'm fine, really. Just a little freaked out by the whole thing. Hopefully I won't need a second one. But if I do, I'll be better prepared, that's for sure.
Meg: Giada - Being hotmegandjim on January 26th, 2007 03:35 am (UTC)
Oh, wow. I'm sorry you had to go through that. It sounds rather unsettling.
seftiri: Cephalopodsseftiri on January 26th, 2007 03:50 am (UTC)
It was. But probably not as unsettling as cuttlefish. ;)
a_noni_muss on January 26th, 2007 07:29 am (UTC)
This reminds me of the sheep eye dissection we did in uni.

Now I'm imagining a needle going into it...


Just had to share that cause your sharing inspired me.

Those are our tax dollars hard at work.

I'm sorry it sucked and I'm praying and hoping you get better.

seftiri: Diane @ Habitat4Humanityseftiri on January 26th, 2007 11:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks sweetie! I know I'll be fine. My gf says so and she's never wrong! ;)

So sheep eyes, eh? What kind of class was that? O_o Cuz I never want to take it. LOL
a_noni_muss on January 28th, 2007 04:07 am (UTC)
*hugs both of you* aw you guys are so cute!

And yes never take physiology. We did sheep hearts on valentine's day too...just...yeah, very wrong.
shay: oneofthosedaysshaych_03 on January 26th, 2007 08:09 am (UTC)
should i even bother asking *why* you had to undergo such a treatment? oy!!

i would have been freaking out too.

if you're in need of some jeri eye candy, let me know and i'll see if i can dredge some hi q images up for ya :D (or maybe just a wowzer of a seven biosuit shot ;)

seftiri: Strengthseftiri on January 26th, 2007 11:41 pm (UTC)
The retina of my left eye has lesions that sometimes ulcerate and then leak fluid into my macula, causing blind spots. Apparently there's a fresh fluid leakage and now they can treat those by injecting this colon cancer drug into the eye. I still don't get how, but okay. ;)

I could use some nice Jeri eye-candy if you come across some. But I only liked the purple and the blue/grey biosuits. Now Seven in the blue uniform? That was way hotter than hot! :D
shay: birdsofpreyshaych_03 on January 27th, 2007 01:44 am (UTC)
huh. that's interesting. i wonder if it's because it causes the tissue to shrink, thereby closing off the lesion :)

i'd think one of the things they'd want a cancer drug to do is shrink tumors, anyway :)

jeri eye candy: http://www.celebrity-pictures.nu/Jeri-Ryan/images/lg_Jeri-Ryan/JERI-RYAN3.jpg and i'll dig through my cap collection and see if i can find you some Seven in 'Fleet colors :D
froggumz: Luce: Buddies!froggumz on January 26th, 2007 03:02 pm (UTC)
My eye won't stop watering just from reading this! I can't even begin to imagine going through it. You are one strong human being sweetie. *hugs*

As for drug testing, I really want to know the answer. The vet & I were talking about this with Mojo a few weeks ago because it turns out that a human allergy medication is a feline appetite stimulant. How in God's name do they figure these things out??
seftiri: Medsseftiri on January 26th, 2007 11:44 pm (UTC)
I have no idea how they figure these things out. I hate to think that they are just randomly injecting things into test animals. :(

Thanks for the kind words. I'm still not feeling very brave about it, but I did get through it without needing to be sedated, so that is a win in my opinion.

Shut up and smile: TV ll Rome ll Octavia/Serviliamorningafter2 on January 27th, 2007 01:42 am (UTC)
*big hug* I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. I hope it's all okay very, very soon.

And in my opinion, you are plenty brave. Because I'd have been freaking out and having (private) mini-panic attacks. But then, I'm kind of a wimp.

Either way, again I'd like to say that I hope it all works out.
seftiri: Kataraseftiri on January 27th, 2007 04:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! I have a feeling it is going to work out just fine. I found out yesterday that my eye doctor has degrees in electrical engineering, biomedical engineering, pediatric medicine and opthalmology. She is kind of amazing. So I think everything will work out. :)

As for the bravery part, thanks again. I still don't feel brave about the whole thing but I am learning to think more openly on that topic. ;)

Donkey Kong-Carson: bigger bananadonk_carson on February 2nd, 2007 09:12 pm (UTC)
::hugs you tight::

Sounds like you ended up with a nasty case of THE FLAMING LIDLESS EYE OF SAURON! (No, Sauron's eye ain't gay. LOL)

I hope the shot helps.

(Here's a little thing 'tween you and me. Tiff hates having things she doesn't control near her eyes. You should have seen it when she first got contacts and the doc tried to put them in for her. Hilarious. Anyway, she'd have needed to be sedated. She's wimpy like that.)
seftiri: Sokkaseftiri on February 3rd, 2007 04:09 pm (UTC)
::hugs you back::

Flaming Lidless Eye of Sauron! LOLOL Add a little sand to the mix and that's EXACTLY how it felt! LOLOL

I'm sure everything will be okay. It was just disconcerting.

Thanks for the heads up on Tiff. I still think she would have handled the whole thing better than I did, but now I know not to try to put in her contacts for her. ;)